All I Want in a Guy

As an Aries, I can be a very passionate person.

I’m 20, going on 21 this April, and I’ve never been in love. For me to even start actually liking a guy is rare. But when I do, my feelings can run deep and be intense. Even though I’m not always vocal about it.

This past year I’ve been working hard to venture more out of my shell. Day by day, I do see myself evolving. The guard I used to have up so high is gradually coming down. I’ve been finding myself taking more chances when it comes to new experiences, as well as new people.

It was a year I even allowed myself to fall for someone new. Things were nice, and pretty refreshing after what I’d experienced with the previous guy, but unfortunately didn’t last. We never got to the point where it became anything really exclusive. But I was, however, lead to believe that there was potential we could’ve been. In the end my feelings were hurt because this was someone I thought so highly of. Someone I genuinely cared about and did my best to show him just that. Someone I let in willingly. I took this one hard because I really wasn’t expecting him to just leave things the way he did. We didn’t end on very good terms, but I still do wish him the best.

 

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Taken at the National Gallery of Art Sculpture Garden in Washington, D.C.

Truth to be told, I do consider myself to be a hopeless romantic. Not the hopeless romantic who sets unrealistic fantasy standards, but the hopeless romantic who just loves love. I’m infatuated with that pure affection.

Every girl wants to feel special, to really mean something to somebody. We all do, for that matter. I think we all also would like to have someone who will refuse to give up on us. No matter how complicated it can get. To find love like that in reality, it’s hard. But I know it’s not impossible. I know that out here there are some amazing guys. And as I continue to get older and grow up, I’ve been finding myself more and more craving to find that person for me.

I want someone who actually has an interest in getting to know me, building with me, growing with me. Someone who I can always be around, go on cute little dates with and we just enjoy each other, learn one another from our strengths to our defects. Through both the good and bad, we’ll stick together because at the end of the day there’s no one else either of us would rather be with. And in time, our bond will only get better. Closer. Stronger. I want someone who is going to love me so much that they’ll be willing to go through whatever for me. They’ll want to fight for me, put in that hard work for me, because they’ll know it pays off in the long run. They won’t let me just slip away.

The upside of going through these guys is that I’m learning more about myself. What I’d appreciate in a relationship and what I wouldn’t. I always knew I definitely have a type, but I guess it wasn’t until recently I began figuring out exactly what type that is.

Now, I do know.

My type is an authentic, confident but also humble, caring, sweet, mature gentleman. He’ll have no problem ever being honest with me, regardless of whether it’s what I want to hear or not. But he’ll also have a kind heart. Always care to ask me about my day, what’s on my mind, and consider my feelings. Not invalidate them. He’ll be loving. Hold me close in his arms and kiss me on even my worst, moodiest of days. Despite my attempts to push him away. He’ll actually come communicate with me when we run into issues, so we can take them on like adults, instead of just running off.

That’s the one who I know will be worth giving my heart, my all to.

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